I don´t know how to desribe my feelings.......somebody said to me that: life is drive on roller coaster.....but I have sense that i´m falling straight down and i don´t see floor........maybe is too near and i´m not able to see it......my last month is the worst in all my life.....my health is bad....my friends are too busy to seal me......i don´t understand anything.....somebody can say to me that i´ve a boyfriend....so i have a buttres......i don´t know.....i´m not sure that I have it.....i´m feeling that i´m lost in too big world....and bad world......I musn´t show my feelings....maybe  i don´t want it.....but my heart is crying and bleeding..........i don´t understand what i made wrong....please help me.....................................................................................................................................................................................