Here I am. It´s morning outside, 4:53, and I start writing finally, even if I thought I wouldn´t.
Maybe you are asking, why am I not sleeping. It´s simple. Last summer has something changed inside me, especialy my heart has fall in big black whole and I still haven´t foud it, get it back.....When your heart is away, you can´t thing about nothing but how to get it back. It´s the most important part of your body. I still remind myself how it happend. I see it, like it was yesterday. I see the alien who took it, I see the beautiful stranger, I see him, I see the f..king b.stard, I see him clearly, the sly rat..........how is smiling all around and his eyes are watching every move I make....I hate him, so much.....
And today I could be there, I could see his calm eyes a tell him everything, just only if I haven´t been ill. I hate myself. I love him. He took my heart, I hate myself for loving him!!!